Thursday, January 31, 2008

Don't over think it...

I was sitting in a coffee house this morning reading for my photography courses and another amateur photographer saw my material and struck up a conversation with me. He has taken courses at the local awesome design school that is oh so expensive and non-conducive to my lifestyle with three small kids. We talked shop for a bit and then as we were saying our good-byes he reminded me that it is not the camera, but the eye behind it, that creates art. He went on to say that I need to resist the temptation to over think it... I just need to get out there and take pictures... lots of pictures.

I am constantly fielding all sorts of unhelpful advice, but this little bit of wisdom was actually tremendously helpful. I love how serendipity can smile down on me just when I am least expecting it.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

My son thinks like...well you guess...

Boo was talking to his grandma on the phone today trying to decide where to go for dinner and in a moment of frustration, he tells her:

"Grandma, mommy keeps deleting my choices for where I want to go to dinner."

Yes folks, my son does have a software engineer for a daddy.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

A decision to Be

I have made a decision...
I've decided I am no longer seeking perfection, instead I think I'll go for the good enough... at least in this lifetime.

I think I made that decision in my mind quite some time ago. But now, I need my decision to be reflected in how my daily living happens.

I am most needing to remember that when someone points out my humanity. I have to remember that I have chosen to have a cluttered car and garage in this season of my life. I have to remind my soul that I have chosen to have clothes unfolded and dishes in the sink. I must remind my emotion not to be too sensitive when someone comments, because their comments are probably more about them being uncomfortable with their own humanity, than being uncomfortable with mine.

To be made wonderfully human is good enough for me. I'll save perfection for the next life.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

We have a Craft Closet....

For months now I have been lurking around several very creative blogs wishing and pining for the time and space for the creation of art in my home life. Then I realized that I just need to work within the space and time constraints that this season of life supplies and so I re-worked some spaces in my home and found a full coat closet to be home base for our family creative process. I am still in the process of putting the finishing touches on the new space and when I am done I will post a pic. I am just a wee bit giddy about this!

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

I think the Blitz is over...

...I say while ducking (out of fear that I am inviting all sorts of horror into our lives).

The holidays are over, all of the get togethers and programs are in my sweet memory, and the birthdays and celebrations are now past. It is a very tough time of year... every time it comes round. Add a teething baby, two asthma kiddos, and the ongoing laundry monster that is created by a potty training preschooler, and things get infinitely more difficult.

All things considered... it was a wonderful season. There is so much joy in such a short amount of temporal space. I don't mind all of the hustle and bustle when I can see it within the context of why I am doing what I end up doing. Celebrating the birth of incarnate. Ringing in a whole new year. Giving thanks and celebrating the lives of my two little January babies. These events are all worth that extra work.

There were of course, the ugly times. My kids like to call them the mean mommy moments. Hopefully there will be fewer of those moments next year the time comes round again

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Memories of a not so distant past...

My girlfriend and I got into a great discussion the other night that was not kid related at all. The conversation rested on the issue of how different generations learn in different ways. She went to a workshop on the various characteristics that make each of the generations represented in the workforce, look at and respond to the world differently. She is a nurse, so her context was learning how to better teach procedure and mentor floor nurses, but as I listened to her experience, I could feel my brain juices flowing.

You see, the area of generational studies is something that I devoted a lot of my continuing education to during my time in educational ministry. Learning how to understand the generation I was reaching out to was imperative in my role as youth worker... at least from my vantage point. It was interesting to see the universality of the issues wrapped up in dealing with people from many generations at once. Many of the challenges the Nursing organization is experiencing are in fact the same challenges the church is trying navigate right now.

So here is the point of the post... it was so good to remember that I have areas of expertise that have nothing to do with my motherhood. At the risk of showing some residue of bitterness, I was reminded the other night that I did not have a good transition out of my career and into the role of stay at home mom. There were so many factors for that and blame is just really unhelpful in the processing of that time of my life. What I did not allow my soul to do was really drink deeply from the truths of that really important transition in the context of putting my career aspirations on hold. I really just ended up shutting that part of my brain down until I could grieve what it felt like to leave a job that defined me and how the people around me during that time responded to that.

But I was and still am a gifted thinker with lots of training and experience. The anger of others does not change that. I was and still am a woman with the responsibility to live an adult life and the lack of recognition of that by others does not change that truth either. The conversation that popped up with my friend the other night has given me a great gift... I can re-integrated that part of myself once again. Some day soon my wee ones are going to be in the going out phase... the writing on the wall is already there. When my season of nesting and nurturing in the home is over I have a new season to look forward to. I've known what I want to do with my career when my kids are ready,for quite some time now and it is exciting to remember that though the career I was in before motherhood was but for that season, it will fold very neatly in the design of the next season of career I have ahead of me.

And...I am not useful to the world merely for gestating and parenting children... and I've been really needing that reminder.

Monday, January 7, 2008

With a new year comes change

Life has been happening at full speed recently, but there is a ton of good change going on in my life these days. I've been working out now for almost 3 months, (minus this now two week hiatus because of family and personal sickness) and I'm feeling really good. I've started photography courses through a correspondence program and I got myself a real dSLR camera. I need to be me... the me that does not include the mommy/wife/house cleaner/daughter/friend, parts of me. It is the me that exists purely because I was created, and it is fun finding her again. Don't get me wrong, I love residing in every one of my roles in this life, but I also love the just being as well!!!

Change is looking good around here!

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Happy New Year!!!

I have taken a bit of a blogging hiatus, so that I could have every possible moment to deal with the chaos of my family life during the holidays.

It was a wonderful holiday season... from the precious school programs where Boo was Joseph and Cinderella (that's the current nickname my dd has chosen for herself) was a little lamb; to the comedy of errors that produced the now famous Christmas dinner side dish, Potatoes with Tomatoes. (It really is so funny to say Potatoes and Tomatoes in the Samwise gamgee voice from LOTR... thank you very much Sean Austin)

Now it is on to the birthday celebrations for my two January babes that are going to be 3 and 5 years old this month. Crazy!!! When did my kids get that old???