Monday, March 31, 2008

Thoughts for a Monday morning

Over the past few months, my little space in the blogosphere has been changing and transforming. I like the direction things are going in. I love that I can have my irl friends and family participate, and I am also enjoying the opportunity to cultivate new friendships that are not bound to my geographical location or my specific walk of life. So in the coming weeks and months you might see some experiments and ideas travel through this space. Please have grace for me, as I figure out what works and what doesn't work for my blog.

You will probably see more poetry and more photography, as that is where my creative heart lives. You might hear more about my thoughts on relationship, as that is where my reality is, as I am trying to help three young souls navigate this life. You will definitely hear more of my voice coming together. I am evolving as a writer and a woman, and that will bring good things to the blogging table.

Hopefully you will want to come along as I continue on this journey. Thanks for all of your love and support thus far!!!

Friday, March 28, 2008

Thursday Thoughts- Simple vs. Easy

(Let's just pretend that this entry was posted yesterday... I was never able to get back to write this post, but I want the ball rolling anyway.)

Because of my educational background I have to start the conversation by stating operational definitions of simple and easy. When I use the word simple, I mean unadorned, modest, and not elaborate. Honest and congruent. When I use the word easy, I mean not difficult, using the least amout of steps to get something accomplished, and painless.

Both easy and simple have warm spots in my heart. Both have strengths and weaknesses, and for the most part, what is simple or easy in my life is not necessarily universal. What works for me to have a simple life, that happens to be easy to accompish, will not always work for anyone else.

Saying all of this here is what I am thinking about this week.


Reality: My family must eat...three or more times a day... every day. A reality I am still coming to terms with. LOL!

Simple: Having the means to provide meals for my family at my fingertips

Easy :Having a way to present said meals quickly.

The tension lies in the reality that what is simple in concept is not easy. Having the means to provide meals for my family takes planning, shopping, preparing, organizing, and then cooking the meals. Totally not easy for me because I would rather play or write or take pictures, than organize my efforts in the kitchen. What is easy is bringing dinner in or going to the dinner. Take out or dine in could be simple except that I have three kids. It's expensive, it can produce a lot of waste and I have to get in the car to make it happen. So in thise area of life I think I choose the simple option. Organize, organize, organize.

So that's about it for now.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Thursday Thoughts- Simple vs. Easy

I am going to start a little Thursday tradition on this little blog of mine, because I can. Every Thursday I am going to post about how the simple life is not always the easy life. I am always struggling with these two phrases and trying to find a way to balance these two important realities for my life.

It is a life goal of mine that my life become simple. I want my relational style to be honest and congruent. I want my waste to be minimal. I want my family life to be about the simple things... love, fun, nurture. I want a smaller home, a smaller eco footprint, and smaller stake in the consumerist race. I want to produce less waste and more awareness.

Saying all of this though, here is the truth of the reality of this season in my life: I often need things to be easy. I have lots of care to deal with and I can't make things more complicated in the process of trying to make things simple. So there is a constant tension inherent in the mix of what my goals are and what my reality is.

Thus the birth of a new Thursday conversation. So pull up a chair and grab a cup of joe and join me in this new conversation.

Getting back to a more simple existence

I have been distracted from making things more simple in my life recently, and it is time to get back to the business of living the simple life. I am a person of faith. I am a wife. I am a mother. I am a writer. I am photographer. I am a woman. I am a part of a wonderful extended family. I want to find balance and live in the freedoms that were granted to me as a birthright.

Forgive me for getting off back to our regular programming...

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

All the Blame...none of the credit

There is this little phenomem in life where holding to personal boundaries gets you all of the blame for standing firm and disappointing others, while at the very same time gets you shorted for the credit of honoring a relationship's natural roots by respecting it enough to speak up when imbalance is present.

I hit this all of the time in my role as mom. My kids hate firm boundaries, but they fail to recognize that the boundaries become firm as they grow and learn more control of themselves and their behavior. When I feel this occuring in the transitional periods of parenting, it totally makes sense to me. Of course they don't have the perspective of an adult where they can correlate the firming boundaries to the fact that I actually am trusting them more to be in charge of themselves.

When the phenomen happens in other relationships I am surprise and sometimes I feel anger. It is hard to disappoint others when I don't meets someone's ideal of what I should do or be However I choose my priorities and I am really trusting a relationship when I say, "Hey, this is the nature of our relationship, this is the reality of life circumstances, please just respect the reality." Sometimes the response to the laying boundaries is that I get all of the blame for pointing out the natural boundary lines and yet at the very same time I get none of the credit for th amount of love, trust and courage that is required to hold that truth up to another.

Oh well, it is still my job to hold true to my matter how that is perceived and responded to.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Burning the Midnight Oil... Again

Teething blows chunks...

I wish I could take the pain of swollen gums from my sweet baby boy. I hate molars

Some days I will fall short

Some days they triple team me... the kids that is, and I lose my temper. It's normal I know, everyone loses their cool when work is not going well, but when I lose mine, it is at the expense of a 1 year old, 3 year old and 5 year old. They see momma get angry and slam about and that scares them. Thankfully, there is grace enough, even to cover the ugly mommy moments.

May my children remember my tenderness more than my anger.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Hard at work...

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The Family Celebration

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We did not attend church this easter. It is the first time I have not sat in a church service on Easter Sunday... since about my third year of life, and I am so glad I made that choice. You see, we are thoroughly enjoying our new church community...yet our regular service at this large church was going to meet at the early hour of 6:30 AM and I could not even muster up enough courage to get our family of five ready and out the door to enjoy the sunrise service at the park. I just couldn't do it. I also couldn't stomach the idea of attending one of the other services at our new mega style church. We would have had to meet in a shopping parking lot and be shuttled into one of the several services...and I could not do it. Nope, couldn't do just felt so wrong.

Which left me with a couple of alternatives... and given my remaining choices, I opted to celebrate the day with my family at home. It was a worshipful and organic setting. We had time to read to the kids and share about the story that is so dear to our hearts. We had less stress and more time to just be.

None the less, next year I hope our family will be abbe to meet up with the gang at the park on the hill. But for this year we went for the good enough.

And do you know what...the holiday came just the same... a humble reminder of where I fit in the big picture of the story of our living God.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Happy Easter

I have a complicated relationship with this holiday, but none the less I hope your easter sunday was full of resurrection and new hope!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

"I wanna do that when I grow up..."

That was my daughter's response to watching four acrobats as they dropped upside down from a pole about 40 feet up in the air as a part of the entertainment during the Mexican fiesta last week. She was just in awe. My little girl is going to do something amazing with her life as she grows. She always has the best ideas about what kind of job she will have... and she is only 3! I love this about her. She's wanted to be a mommy, a doctor, a baseball player and now a upside down flying acrobat! It is going to be fun to watch where she goes in life!

I've been bitten by the travel bug

Going to Mexico was such an exciting adventure. I've been all over the place in the continental US, but have never had the opportunity to travel abroad and now I gotta do it again, and again and again. It is so interesting to see a different culture, and get to peek inside for just a bit. Our next big trip is going to be to Greece in 2010 and I just cannot wait to take my children to europe!!!

I am not one of those Americans who believe we have the art of living mastered... that our culture is the only right and best way to conduct community. While in Mexico, I was at a tourist destination resort, with all of the luxaries I could think of, but I quickly grew restless of life inside the resort. I did not travel to another country to see just an americanized view of the Mexican experience. I wanted Mexican culture. Really I did. So we found little pockets of it where we could. We asked people about life and the best places to see, and how to avoid the tourist traps. We were quite limited with options because our kids are so little, but I believe we will travel to Puerto Vallarta again sometime soon, and we will know where we want to be and what we will want to do.

Now I know how I travel in a foreign land, and gratefully... dh and I are totally on the same page. We have very similar goals and perspectives of how we would like to spend our time, so our next trip abroad will be wonderful... I think I'm gonna start planning right now!

Monday, March 17, 2008

Why I have been MIA...

... The family took our first international trip to sunny Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. It was an exhilarating seven days of fun, adventure, and cat herding. Yes, I did say cat herding. We have three children (1, 3, and 5 yrs. old) and moving them all together in the same direction at any given time, was a very frustrating task. We went by van, by plane, by shuttle, by bus, by golf cart, by taxi, by boat, by train, and by wind during our adventures. This week I will try and recount our fun, but for today I will simply say it was a wonderful trip and I am very grateful to be home now.

Monday, March 3, 2008

The birthday banner

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It's a work in progress!

Having fun entertaining without so much waste!

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Sweet Pea

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My Sweet Pea

... Forgive me as this entry is a day late... we were all celebrating two special kids yesterday...

A year ago this time, I was so relieved to be holding my brand new healthy baby boy. I went into labor four weeks early and this mama was very nervous. I knew that four weeks could be okay for an infant, only making him slightly a premie, but because of the family history of asthma, I was hoping to keep him gestating longer than he wanted, so at 1:17 am little Sweet Pea made his way into our world, and our family. From the moment we met, I was in love. I called him my zen baby, because as long as his tummy was full, he was content and completely peaceful in his own skin.

I have learned so much about life from our sweet little boy. I have learned to release a little more of my need to control. He was conceived before I thought we were ready, he came out before I was ready to be done being pregnant, and he does most everything on his own time schedule. I just love that about him. He is my little surprise package. He's helped me slow down and trust the universe a little more. He is pure delight. A smile that makes you want to join in his joy. A laugh that stirs your soul, and a cry that makes you want to comfort.

Thank you sweet pea for coming exactly when you did. I so grateful I got to be there for every great moment of your first year of life and I cannot wait what you have planned for this next year. Mommy loves having a little slice of your peace and tranquility around our home and family.