Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Timeless

I have driven past this building several times a week for almost five years and have often dreamed of having the skills to make this old building pop in a photo. Finally last week, I mustered up the courage to stop and make a first attempt at photographing the site. This is the first installment of what might just be many attempts to capture what's in my mind's eye:

Monday, July 28, 2008

Experimenting with new techniques


The more I get into the art of photography, the more I realize I need to learn. It is so fun to just get out there and take pictures!

When I stopped working, I started a trend of personal entropy in my soul. I stopped growing and I stopped pursuing something that was just for me. I am so glad I have found a way to reverse that current in my life!

Sunday, July 27, 2008

I'm up and running again!

My photos have been transferred to the new computer. I've edited lots of pics and I even uploaded 4th of July pics to shutterfly so I can scrapbook. Dh is home from a work conference and peace as come to visit once more. Hopefully I'll be able to get more work done and uploaded to flickr and the blog this week. Oh yeah, and I should probably work on my next photo assignment too.

Lil' Miss Baby J

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Changing of Seasons

I am back… I feel totally at home in my own skin and I am finding new layers of myself as I am processing through my journey into motherhood. I think I will always look back on this season, as a time similar to what Moses and David experienced in shepherding for years as preparation. My life largely consists of mundane tasks. Cleaning laundry, wiping bums and noses, shuttling kids to and fro. Yet it has been through the mundane that I have found my core and it is through such humbling circumstances, that I am being shown the unique place in the world set-aside just for me.

I have worked hard; I have been humbled by my depravity. I have made huge mistakes in my most important relationships and I have found tremendous grace through the confrontation of my own self-centeredness. I have said good-bye to many wonderful friends and colleagues and have said hello to many more fellow travelers.

And now it is time for me to start a new stage in my life. I am so excited to search for what I really want to do next. I know for sure it will include creating and relating… beyond that I am still not sure. What I do know is that I am working myself out of a job as 24/7 infant and toddler care director, and I am working my way back towards pursuing my own dreams.

Many years ago my dreams were spit on, by a couple of people who had great influence in my life… and I was one of the ones spitting in my own soup, so to speak. Now I choose humbleness and grace as the perspective in which I will look into what I might want to do next. I will need help… and I have great companionship in my journeying so I am trusting that all of my needs are being attended to, even before I have them.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Another One Bites the Dust...

Ds 2...aka Bubbas, broke my new computer. It was a small fall, but oh so expensive. It will cost $1100 to repair... or $1400 to replace. Argh!!! Oh well... such is life. The thing I am the saddest about, is not being able to post pics on the blog and Flickr for a couple of days. Forgive me for a few more picture less entries. =(

Friday, July 18, 2008

Oh Yes... I keep forgetting I promised vacation pics...

...So here you go...




This, That, and The Other

This:

So the cleaner came. The books found their way back into the shelf. The pile on top of the table is now several more organized piles. How could I actually clean it off, when I got a new toy yesterday, which leads to...

That:
My new lens is mounted and I am loving it! The EF 50mm f1.4 lens does not disappoint!

The Other:

On the learning front, I am learning about cloning in photo editing, and natural lighting in the art of photography.

It's been a quick week, which means the weekend is already here and I'll have lots of opportunity to use my new lens. I hope your weekend is relaxing and fun!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Visions from underneath the thinking cap...

...aka the old rusty colander the kids play with. Boo put it on my head, because after all that is where a thinking cap belongs! I am watching my son play act in front of me, while still wearing his mismatched pajama's at 1 PM in the afternoon. Can I tell you just how much I love the summer. Can I also say that I am so glad I dropped out of the perfect house wife, perfect mother club... and here's my proof:

The pile on the dining room table that is just begging to fall:


The laundry that needs folding:


The "bookshelf" with very few actual books currently housed there:


The toys I've been tripping over for days:


Lucky for me our house cleaner comes tomorrow and she's even going to do windows for me....I'm just so giddy!

Monday, July 14, 2008

Finally some calm

Last week was a very emotional week. Most of the medical issues are starting to resolve themselves, but there is great loss too. There is also some mystery mixed in there. Though I don't want to go into great detail, out of respect for those involved, I want to share a little bit.

My mother is having some health issues and though she was hospitalized for testing, we still don't know exactly what is going on. At least we've ruled out some of the scary possibilities, but she's still not well and we don't have anything concrete yet. Everyone in my family is so accustomed to my mother being the healthy one, so it was hard to see her in need. Every child needs to see their momma safe and healthy, and I am no different. We can be three or thirty three and that truth resonates. I am grateful that she is getting great care, and I hope we can find some clues to the mystery this week at her next appointment.

On a good note... this little guy is home from a stay in the NICU... and isn't he just one of the most adorable little ones you have ever seen...




In the end, I am reminded, yet again, that life is fragile and we control very little. I am implored to stay connected to those I love in meaningful ways. I am reminded to be grateful for the wonderful things of this life and to grieve the sorrowful things as well.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

We are having a week here

All of a sudden our extended family is having all sorts of medical issues, so I won't be able to blog so much this week. Send positive thoughts and prayers our way please!

Monday, July 7, 2008

Back...

... Okay, so I guess I officially have to call my vacation over. *Pout*

It was a wonderful week. It was incredibly relaxing. The beach, the pool, Legoland, 4th of July with friends, a brand new baby pseudo-nephew... life is good!

Now we are home, slowly umpacking and head first into Vacation Bible Camp. I love volunteering and not having Director after my name! I'm never going back... I'm just never gonna do that one ever again! I'll post pics soon!