Monday, September 29, 2008

A Weekend Away

I am a terribly reserved person when it comes to new situations and this past weekend was just the sort of occassion for me to be completely out of my comfort zone. I was able meet about 20 people I have never met irl before and can I just say, I had an amazing time... anxiety and all.

Twenty three women gathers in sunny Vegas to hang out together as friends, women and fellow momies. Most of these women have been together since they were pregnant with their firecracker babies almost four years ago and they are a great group of gals! I joined the board about a year ago, because my irl bff is a regular on this board, but I am a low post person, so I have a fairly low profile there. Every year I would hear of her trip to Vegas and how wonderful it was. This year I decided to try it out for myself, and what a great time it was. Everyone was super kind and welcoming. It was so great to get away and find some refueling for my tired mommy spirit.

I'm already planning for next year!!!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Sometimes I feel like an alien

In my own culture that is. How did we get to this place of mostly hollow living? How did we collectively decide that mediocre was good enough. Mediocre living, mediocre maturity, mediocre relating, mediocre producing. I feel so foreign on the streets of LA sometimes. I want to have excellence around me... not the mirage of excellence. I want to pass a legacy of excellence and achievement to my children and my children's children. I want to feel every emotion that is given to me and I want to feel it intensely.

In recent years I have moved away from what my culture says is the path to the brass ring, and in doing so, I actually feel like I am finally feeling just the tip of the ice berg in regards to the type of life I can have, if I really reach for the abundant life. True abundance is not about the American dream, and all of the *stuff* that goes with it. True abundance is about taking each breath to it's most maximum potential. Oh how I hope I can be a part of helping our community shift back towards a more wholesome living.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Harvest Moon

Harvest Moon, originally uploaded by poetic mama.

I saw the most beautiful harvest moon last week, and it was very frustrating to me that I could not properly capture the colors yet. Sometimes I hate being such a novice. Someday, I will find that beautiful harvest moon again, and I'll be able to capture it too.

Welcome Autumn!!!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

It's been a while...

... since I've had a chance to watch a good indie movie by myself and, what a movie it was. My dearest friend let me borrow Playing By Heart and I am so glad I took the time to sit down and watch it. The format of the movie was dangerously predictable, but the story totally compensated for a predictable formula. The acting was phenomenal. Sean Connery, Angelina Jolie, Gillian Anderson, Ellen Burstyn, Gena Rowlands... and even Ryan Phillippe and Jon Stewart.

Go out and get this movie!

Saturday, September 20, 2008

I love me some wii

Wow, I had know idea how much I would love my wii and wii fit, but I just love it. Who wouldn't love the hoola hoop and yoga? Not to mention my ability to resurrect my obsession with the orginal Super Mario Bros. game. I am in love!!! And so is my whole family!!!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Back To School For Me Too

Back to school for my kids, means back to school for me too. It was a wonderful and free summer, but now it is time to settle into an autumn routine.

So hopefully I will be able to *Post It* more often

Link to Flickr

This, That, and The Other


School is back in session, but now I'm officially a mommy taxi. Lucky for me I have a niced organized van... and a dvd player for the kids not in karate. Can I tell you how cute it is to watch a 3 yr. old and a 5 yr. old kid scurry about in a crisp white gi.

I'm a big anger ball right now, thus the lower profile round these parts. I am finally completely aware of what I have left to grief. It's a good anger. The belly anger that is helping me work through the mess.

And The Other:

I gotta share at least one new photo:

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Saturday, September 13, 2008

The art of simplicity

photo credit: my mil... pp was done by poetic mama

So just in the last week I have come to a new understanding that has totally lifted me towards a new level of freedom. The biggest key I know to successfully living a life of simplicity, is to rest in the knowledge that I know very little about this life. It is what I do know though, that is something I can rest in no matter what life brings me. I know myself. I know how I feel, and when I am in tune with that which is only mine to possess, everything else is manageable. And I mean everything.

This has been a huge week of things coming into focus for me. One thing cast into perfect focus is the huge issue I have been running from most of my life, and all of my adult life. Fear has kept me locked behind my own defenses for so long. I was so afraid that when I reached focus of this issue, I would never be the same. That, ironically has absolutely come true, but in an entirely different way than I expected. Instead of being consumed by my deepest wound, I am finding myself strangely at home in my own skin... in a way that I have not experienced since early childhood.

I guess the *the man behind the curtain* was wrong after all. This wound is not, nor was it ever, proof of my eternal worthlessness. Good thing I held enough hope to keep traveling the path towards finding a better answer.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

To Thine Own Self Be True- Part Three

It took me a long time to understand that my emotion was given to me. I feel because I am human and therefore, I can pay attention to what my experience is as I travel through life and relationships. This is an important piece to my evolution. When I look look behind to where I've been, it changes my perspective.

My sorrow is an opportunity to heal, my anger is an opportunity to pay attention to what is unjust, my joy is an opportunity to be grateful for this life I've been given.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Boo's First Day

Boo's First Day
Originally uploaded by poetic mama

We've all been very busy around here helping Boo prepare for his exciting new journey. It was a wonderful day and I am so proud to be Boo's mommy...especially now that he is in kindergarten.