Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Special Birthday Post to my Awesome Nephew

My awesome nephew on the day he graduated elementary school.

I have known you since the very first day and have been one of your biggest fans since the moment I first laid eyes on you and cradled you in my arms.  I have watched you grow from newborn to this awesome young man that stands before us today.  I love being a mom but my favorite gig on this planet is being your auntie.  I know you're growing up... just promise to keep in touch...I might be able to supply you a car in a few years!  ;)  Happy Birthday!!!

Things I learned from this past season...

...Lists that seem funny in my head are not so much on my blog.  I tend to have a quick, self deprecating humor in real life...and yet somehow when I write from that place something gets lost in translation and I just read as mean.  No.more.listy-memey.thingy.posts. (Ignore that I’m using that style here...these are not the droids you’re looking for.)

...Wisdom comes through living life fully present.  It is a gift that comes right on time and not a minute too matter how much I wish it sooner.

...My first instinct about a situation is often spot on...and when it’s not there is a good reason worth exploring anyway.  Enough of listening to the voices in my head that say I’m too sensitive, I’m too obsessive, I’m too much of some things and not enough of others.

...I can’t out Maureen the Maureens of the world.  (5 points for a reference to Rent)  I can go the drama route, but it doesn’t feel good to me .  The Maureens of the world and I find each other that’s for sure...but I’m usually the one doing the tango only doing it backwards in heels.

...I was born a utility player...need a sacrifice bunt and I’m your girl, right or left handed.   I am slow and steady wins the race and not superstar.  My father noticed that about me early on in my softball years and he nurtured that consistently until my skills were mastered.  (Using the term nurtured in reference to my father feels like I’m telling secrets.  My dad plays hardened dad/ coach well...but he still has a very tender side.)  I can be me...don’t need to put on a show, just get the job done.  That feels good to me.

...Things I need to weather the storms of life-  One solid, honest, kind friendship, faith and hope in that which is bigger than me, and the book of Proverbs.

Things I muttered to the wee ones in this past season.  Things that I never thought I would need to say...

...If you want to spit swear that’s fine with me, but you have to do it outside.

...There will be no money changing hands to get your younger brother to do what you want him to.

...Do I really have to tell you there are no nerf guns in the kitchen?

...I’ll give you a run down of the science of why farts bubble in the water when we are not at the public pool...and yes I know people pee in the pool, but you will go in the bathroom.

Yep I’m a mom to 2 boys...why do you ask?!?

Monday, October 28, 2013

Transcendance Movement Three- broken branch

question-the bridge from despair to hope

broken branch

broken back for a cause untrue
molestation of belief
wisdom saved for the fool
hurried motion to disinfect 
don’t leave don’t retreat
atheism complete 

in action and belief

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Who You Are: A Message To All Women (+playlist)

I originally wanted to share this first video Who You Are: A Message To All Women after a dear mentor friend of mine shared it on Facebook, but I could not figure out how to isolate it to post here.  So after fiddling for a bit I just watched the other videos as well, and wow...just wow.  This is some powerful mixed media artwork...enjoy!

Monday, October 21, 2013

Transcendance Movement Three- Tragedy

question-the bridge from despair to hope


Help me to understand help me to see-
that pain is not my only reality.
This isn’t the norm, it’s locked me in terror.
Give the eyes to see, the heart to believe,
that you aren’t just a cruel entity.

How does a little girl become an object-
a little boy a rag doll for rage?
A person in light to fall victim,
while one cloaked in darkness let to hold influence?
Creating such tragedy.

They tell me to trust, to believe-
how can I pour myself into such dichotomy?
Reconcile within me a purpose, a plea.
This can’t be some kind of comedy...
tell me it kills you to see victims’ enemy.

Friday, October 18, 2013

Self Care Lacking

This is what my workspace ends up looking like
when I have let my needs slip too low on my priority list....

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

How does the Affordable Care Act affect you?

(I highly recommend you find the whole interview from this night...I cannot link it here, but it is well worth the watch.)

Critical thinking is still alive.  I probably disagree with both of these men about some dynamics surrounding the Affordable Care Act and I am so okay with that.  I don't need to agree with everyone. America does not need the branches of our government, nor the two major political parties to agree about everything.  America needs critical thinkers that want to solve problems on all sides of the political spectrum.  We need leaders that are willing to find compromise, with justice, mercy, humbleness, and respect.

Put some big girl and big boy pants on leaders...respresent the best interest of the people!

Monday, October 14, 2013

Transcendance Movement Three- Brokenness

question-the bridge from despair to hope


I want to scream to God...
I want to scream and to ask him why life has to include such pain.
I am afraid...
I am afraid because of the answers he might give 
in response to my arrogant question.

Tell me you’ve been there.
Help me feel less alone as I look at the world around me.
A world filled with chaos that encompasses every possible emotion.
My answers continue to fall short 
as I fear yours will too.

Life complicated
Inconsistencies run wild
Paradoxes baffle
Brokenness paralyzes
Coping ceases to work

Monday, October 7, 2013

Transcendance Movement Three- Questioning

question-the bridge from despair to hope


Can’t help but wonder ...

Is wholeness worth the cost of growth
or joy worth the rate of despair?
Does awareness provide more depth than numbness
or pain required to make the gain?
Do trials make a man
or do men make the trial?

...where is the rhyme?

Friday, October 4, 2013

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Just Keep Swimming...

...seems like upstream most days.  But hey, at least it's 15 years of upstream together...